I wonder if hemophiliacs get their period or if they have to get like the dipo shot or something. I could probably google it but I’m not feeling very Internet savvy today. blood thinners suck. my stomach having like. a seizure right now. it looks like there’s a baby inside and it just keeps kicking my stomach. its fucking bizarre. I’m also. wicked anxious and have noooo idea why. I need to nap or something but I’m afraid I won’t sleep tonight.

I was just thinking about what I’m writing and I sound like a freak. sorry to whoever stumbles upon this post and actually reads it. all it is, is a rant. so I’d just stop reading here.

I spent the day with my nephew. he’s played video games on the game cube. on the wii. he’s drawn. he’s gone outside and played in the dirt. he’s played with his shadows and a friend of his. he’s eaten a chicken sandwich and some french fries. and so ice tea. and now. he’s playing bowling on wii. that kid is a champ, I swear to god. I’d love to be that young again. and not have to worry about anything in this world. love him.

bbjd sndndksjdbshdkdhs I feel like I can’t eat anything without me making it sick. I think mother nature should’ve have her job to daddy so us women didn’t have to suffer every month. or Jesus. make it once a year, I’ll take two weeks straight for that matter. but once a month? beeeeeeeee essssssss.

kellan says to me “why don’t you take a little nap?” he’s so cute. last night when we went to bed. he says “I know how ta do the best massnage.” I said oh ya? and he says “ya watch turn over!” so I did and he puts both hands on my shoulder and like. pats. lmao. he was so funny. then he stops and says “ok. my turn!” meatball.

raaaaaaaaah. being anxious SUCKS. it’s thee most tiring feeling. I’ve never had it much before unless I was about to see someone I liked. or something. but that was more nervousness. this like. won’t go away and idk how to shake it. it’s driving me nuttttttso.

life is such a crazy thing. it really is. everything in it, just. surprises me more and more everyday. especially the people. they drive me nuts haha. ah. my eyes are begging me to shut them, so I shall lose. later.

life is good. I feel amazing.

I can’t believe I quit my job today. it seems so surreal. it happened so fast. but it needed to happen. it was getting really old working with ages 10 and under. ha. you are god awful people. but I’m glad it’s over. SO glad. you have no idea.

I think I’m going to fear it for the rest of my life when this is over.

Asking the right questions is the answer…

It’s not the answers you get from others that will help you, but the questions you ask of yourself.  Here are 40 thought-provoking questions to help you refresh and refocus your thinking:

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more words for thought;
keep the past in the past; it belongs there. no matter what that past is, it shouldn’t be worked for to bring into the future, it should walk into the present.